Glasses? Cheers!

I am seating at my desk and wondering if I need glasses again. I am getting closer and closer to the computer when I want to read something. And once in a while I get a little headache too.

And than I think to myself... Am I going to seat in front of the computer my entire life?! Why did I choose this career? Sometimes I feel I need to change my life, drastically... like should I go back to Brazil? Should I move to another country again? Where should I go? But how am I gonna make money to survive and take care of my daughter? Sometimes I get myself thinking why wasn't I born rich? Or why didn't I marry some rich guy?! like the housewives of Bervelly Hills. I worked hard, I am smart, kind of cute, have a cool personality... don't know why.... so many questions and no answers....

Than God shows me a light, and I see that I am healthy, blessed with: a daughter, a husband, a house, a job, a car, friends, family, food at the table every single day, while some people are not! So why am I complaining?! Because the more you have, more you want. The more money you make, more you spend. The human being is never happy and that's why we need to understand you can't find happiness on material things but on moments of Joy that we will never get it back. So the time is now... I see that the happy moments I have are so simple and I don't need much. It took 27 years of my life for me to realize that...

Thank you Lord, for one more day...

"Com Deus me deito, com Deus me levanto, com a gracas de Deus e o Divino Espirito Santo."

Cheers - Um brinde a Vida!

@ work

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I'm at work.... my desk is full of stuff to do after a holiday and weekend and I have no interest on doing anything....

Why?

I need to go back to work... but can't stop thinking about my baby who is 5 months old... I wish I could be with her right now...

gotta go. tchau.

Why?

Why did I decide to create a blog?! I am so busy already... BUT I feel like I need to write so later on I can understand myself better or even remember when I was feeling this... or that... bla bla bla....

I will write in English, Portuguese, Spanish, perhaps a little bit in Italian... I'm just a dreamer girl who wants to figure things out on my own... from Pindamonhangaba - SP - Brazil to Royersford - PA - United States.

A Brazilian crazy girl, who became a mother the other day.

Gotta go back to work... will be back later... LOVE - always...